Pregnancy for me usually equals an overload of hormones which usually leads to crying for no reason. Often times I just couldn't keep myself from crying for absolutely no reason at all. Well, I've had plenty of good reasons to cry since Saturday night, and sometimes I simply cannot control it or stop it. I honestly got to the point where I was surprised that there were still tears, I thought for sure I had run out.
On Monday morning, during my breakfast, I listened to a recent general conference talk by Elder Carl B Cook of the Seventy. He said, "Experience has taught me that if we, like President Monson, exercise our faith and look to God for help, we will not be overwhelmed with the burdens of this life. We will not feel incapable of doing what we are called to do or need to do. We will be strengthened and our lives will be filled with peace and joy. We will come to realize that most of what we worry about is not of eternal significance - and if it is, the Lord will help us. But we must have the faith to look up and the courage to follow His direction." Well, on turned the water works AGAIN, as I realized that what I was dealing with was of eternal significance, and I knew that the Lord would help us. Whether this sweet baby girl gets to continue to grow and develop and have a mortal life now, or whether we get to raise this girl in the next life is completely up to the Lord, and I just need to have faith.
On Tuesday morning, I watched Elder Neil L Andersen's general conference talk and he said "Where is your faith?" I need to remind myself where I do put my faith.
With these reminders and the Lord's help, I feel a lot more confident with what I am required to do to have a healthier baby. So, I need to stay in bed for 11 weeks. I don't cry about it anymore. I know that things will work out they way the Lord will have it. And it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make for the safety of my daughter.
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